Intrigue

You intrigue me
You fascinate me
I want you
To tear apart my nightmares
Analyze my psyche
And truly
See me
You seem capable
If not a little brutal
Honest
I respect it
I want you to respect me
Show me
Teach me
This mindfulness
This patience
This passion
You practice
And you preach
There's not much I can do
Or what I can do is quite huge
Earth shattering
Life changing
Heart breaking
Choices
Causing ricocheting ripples
But at what cost
At what risk
Would it make a difference
Would you even notice
Would you even realize
That the motive was you?

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